Keep Your Hands Clean—A Criticism of Saksiri Meesomsueb’s Sleight

Sleight

A beggar at the crack of dawn comes with
an empty cup, just as a line of monks
serenely with their bowls set out for alms.
All day until the market ebbs
a shop-woman will stretch the truth,
while from around the temple ring the sounds
of dealing amulets and talismans.
Later in the day will be a magic show
set in the market’s central square,
while in the temple miracles will be proclaimed.
A man of stunts will confront a cobra
as men of faith face down their worldly lusts.
Suppressed, the serpent has no power to harm;
Subdued, such cravings have no power to heat.
Soon, they’ll unleash a mongoose on the snake;
of making merit, the temple chimes on still.
Into the temple, lots of people crowd;
as many, too, to see the show.
A little boy bursts through the ranks in time
to catch them take the snake out of a sack.
Back home, his mother shows off a phallus charm,
while he raves about the cobra, spitting as he speaks.
You’re making too much of what you saw, dear.
They only took a snake out of a sack.

Everywhere we go, corruption seems to be in perpetuity—from huge open yards to the littlest crevices there are. Saksiri Meesomsueb’s third and best poem book “That Hand Is White” is a collection that takes on all manner of contemporary woes: wealth disparity, environmental destruction, the adverse desensitizing effects of urban life, and the inroads of capitalism into Buddhist practice. Under this impressive assemblage is “Sleight”, he transports us to a liminal zone between a Buddhist monastery and a marketplace.

Assembled first at the crack of dawn, was a beggar with an empty cup and a line of monks serenely with their bowls set out for alms. As the poem goes on, monks encourage worshippers to donate inside temple walls, shop-women “stretch the truth”, merchants outside deal in religious icons, and a snake charmer subdues a hooded cobra. A child is enthralled by the latter stunt, he raves about it back home—spitting as he speaks. Much to his disappointment, his mother tells him that he was making it a big deal when they only took a snake out of a sack, while she shows off a phallus charm.

Meesomsueb’s “Sleight” displays deceitful craftiness in an exuberantly almost-free verse filled with unexpected rhyme. It is also pervaded with strong visual elements of fantastic quality, the scenes unfolding like tableaus. In the opening of this rousing poem, all of the men reach out for charity; one has lost his worldly possessions, and the others have voluntarily given theirs away. This muses upon the question of what makes one holier and the answer is interposed when it was later stressed that the monks incite devotees to bring offerings inside temple walls. To be direct, the author insinuates that the monks advise the people to solely give money to them and no one else; making them selfish. The beggar, on the other hand, is simply asking for help with no hidden intentions.

The atmosphere of the poem grows murkier when female vendors exaggerate the quality of their products to attract customers. At the same time, the merchants associate their amulets and talismans with superstitions—outrightly deceiving shoppers. Concurrent as well, a man suppresses a snake: an old parlor trick disguised as an otherworldly feat. To conclude the poem, it was exhibited that the mother warns her son to not be conned by such deceptions. Ironically, the mother lectured the child while holding a phallus charm—herald as a thing intended to bring good luck and ward off evil spirits—which means that even she is hopelessly charmed by false beliefs.

Deception will not reveal itself to you, you have to recognize it. The short poem seeks to teach its readers that society is pestered with fakery and cunning people. We cannot foolishly believe the surface level of things that are shoved into our faces. We must look beyond what is presented before our eyes and speculate about their reliability. Morality instructs us to not lie, and to be honest at all times; it is our moral obligation, to tell the truth. Doing so makes it possible for people to have freedom and trust in each other. Some people dare to deceive others, but we shouldn’t fall victim to their iniquitous tactics and keep the goodness of our hearts intact.

As I live my day-to-day life, I witness situations wherein deceitfulness prevails. Whether it be on social media, inside the jeepney, or on the streets I pass by. I agree that truth is often a matter of perspective but people’s perspectives are also twisted. They modify their principles according to their situations and do not conform to universal laws earnestly. To be honest, humanity renders me hopeless most of the time but Meesomsueb made me learn one meaningful lesson: Only with clean hands can we clean the world. It is now my life’s mission to receive the commendation, “That hand is white”.


Reference:

from That Hand Is White – Asymptote. (n.d.). https://www.asymptotejournal.com/poetry/saksiri-meesomsueb-that-hand-is-white/


Music: A Precedence In My Life

As we navigate life, we cross paths with a variety of things and some of these encounters stick with us for the rest of our lives. With that being said, I’d like to share one specific moment from my childhood that has kept me happy ever since. One sunny afternoon, when I was five, I was going back home after playing outside. A few steps before entering the front door, I heard a song playing from my aunt’s Nokia phone. Though the music was of low quality, the somehow distorted tune was remarkably good. ‘No one, no one, no one‘… I sang along inside my mind, it was my first memory of doing so. Of course, I have heard songs on the radio long before. And I’ve had my fair share of lullabies courtesy of my parents. Moreover, I have been attending school where my classmates and I sing nursery rhymes with our teacher. Oddly enough, it was hearing Alicia Keys that established my interest in listening to music.

The Oxford English Dictionary defines interest as an activity or a subject that you do or study for pleasure in your spare time. This implies that anything can be an interest, there is a large number of options to choose from. A few common interests are: reading, photography, cooking, painting, playing sports, and watching TV shows. While there are niche interests such as researching ancient illnesses, drawing historical figures, collecting vintage cameras, and memorizing airplane names. Listening to music falls under the former—nearly everyone has favorite songs and singers they would mention if you would ask them. If one asks me about mine, I’m quite certain that the conversation would go on for hours.

To say that I ‘like’ listening to music would be an understatement. I live my day to day accompanied by songs. I play them as I fix my bed, as I brush my teeth, as I eat breakfast. It is also a must for me to do household chores with a speaker on. Washing the dishes and folding clothes just aren’t that enjoyable without songs playing in the background. Often, I measure the amount of time I spend taking a bath by how many songs I have listened to. On my way to university, I plug my earphones and turn on a playlist of upbeat songs to cheer me on. It seems to tell me: “It is another great day, everything will be okay!”. In between classes or during vacant hours, I would put them on again. During these times, I usually read a course material or play an offline game while I listen. Recently, I have created a playlist called ‘on your way home from your 7 pm class‘ and I play it in the jeepney if it’s not too densely packed to move and put my earphones on. And you have probably guessed it, I put myself to sleep by listening to music.

Again and again, I know. Still, I am aware that there is an optimal amount of listening time so I give my ears a break when I have to. I also use a Sleep timer when I play songs as I sleep. My fondness for music doesn’t outweigh my regard for my hearing health! To my overall health actually, I don’t go walking around with my earphones on because I don’t want to risk myself into accidents.

Here are the current albums that I have been (safely and consciously) playing on repeat:

1. Asha’s Awakening by Raveena Aurora
2. Heard It In A Past Life by Maggie Rogers
3. Helplessness Blues by Fleet Foxes
4. Contra by Vampire Weekend
5. From Nothing To A Little Bit More by The Lathums

As you have read and seen, I listen to a variety of artists. I love well-known artists such as Taylor Swift, Ed Sheeran, and Adele but I constantly yearn to discover underrated artists. I like finding hidden gems and of course, I oppose the practice of what is called ‘gatekeeping’—preaching exclusivity is futile as it hinders a musician’s chance to garner a wider audience and receive recognition for their music. I’m glad that my beloved artists such as Noah Kahan, Anson Seabra, Sabrina Carpenter, and AURORA gained momentum in their careers by getting viral on TikTok. Though becoming famous, an artist’s music would not suddenly and sloppily change in essence and quality. A fanbase growing larger doesn’t necessarily ruin the fan experience. Music is for everyone, it is created for people’s enjoyment so for fans who despair over their favorite artists gaining popularity, please don’t.

I can’t say that I listen to all kinds of music
since it is highly impossible, there are just too many that they can’t even be listed. But I don’t think there is a genre that is above all other genres. I have a deep respect for music and artists because this craft is a pursuit of passion that communicates emotions and stories that inspires us to keep on living. There are a few genres that I’m not super into but if I look hard enough, I can definitely find songs that I like in any of them. Yes, I mostly listen to Jazz, Pop, Indie, K-pop, RnB, Folk, Alternative, Classical, and Blues but there are times when Opera, Sythwave, Metal, Rock, and Ambient Music are better played.

A Harvard study proves that music is a universal language. Humans may come from varying backgrounds and have different cultures, but they use and enjoy music in the same ways. I’m Filipino and I treasure Original Pilipino Music (OPM). Dwta is currently my favorite local artist, she’s a Bicolana like me and I find immense joy in listening to her songs that are deeply rooted in our shared heritage. However, I appreciate music from all over the world as well. Sure thing, I’m an avid listener of K-pop groups such as BLACKPINK, EXO, LE SSERAFIM, TREASURE, iKON, and SEVENTEEN.
All the same, I am enthusiastic about Japan’s music industry with ONE OK ROCK, RADWIMPS, Arekun, and Vaundy as some of my favorites. On top of that, I am enamored by Spanish musicians like Julieta Venegas, Camilo, and Evaluna. Lately, I have also ventured on listening to Norwegian, German, and French songs.

Technological developments have made diversifying one’s music taste possible, modernity has improved how people listen to music. These days, I can easily stream on Spotify, a platform with a great catalog of music and countless artists to listen to. I stumble upon good obscure recommendations on YouTube from time to time. I also like to check the artists that my favorite musicians like or cite as influences on their interviews found on the Internet. It has become less complicated unlike before when my family had to burn songs onto a CD or when I would acquire songs by going to my cousin’s place and ask her to share them via Bluetooth. Digesting and delving into my interest has never been easier, I’m beyond grateful for that.

Music is an incredible thing; so much so that it’s indescribable. The sensation of your fingers and toes tapping along with the beat. The feeling of your body swaying and your head bopping instinctively. The way it can make you smile when it conjures a memory, a thought, or even a person inside your head. It’s just… inexplicably magical. No matter what emotion you may be feeling or situation you may be in, there is a perfect song for you. As cliché as it may be, I don’t think I can live without music. It’s not merely an interest, it’s a way of life.


‘Why do I have so much to say?’ I think to myself as I write this article. If you read this one until the end, thank you so much!

The Journey of ‘I’

I look down and realize there’s a pair of feet
I wiggle my toes then giggle to myself
I admire the sparkly sandals, it’s so cute
I took one step forward and then another
I found it fun but knew it could be better
I start to quicken my pace
I wore sneakers for maximum comfort
I was running and running and running
I came to a halt, it was fine
I walked carefully and then aimlessly
I was dragging my feet for a while; not until
I discovered the stairs I’m meant to climb
I set my eyes on it, I’m getting there
I felt coldness, first on my soles then all over
I soaked them in a deep puddle
I stepped away as quickly as I can
I did not want to stop
I continued, not marching but stomping
I hated how wet my socks are
I persisted and then sprained my ankle
I stopped, sad — sat and stayed.

I Deleted a Song

I can no longer dance to that song
As my body is no longer capable
Of making those silly moves
We hilariously yet confidently executed
Oh, it belonged to us
It was to be forever ours
But ahead of you
Is a broad array of songs
Waiting to be loved that way
And you felt responsible for them
So I waited as you move around
Cherishing them one by one
Because I only had that one song

I remained patient
Watching from the side
Wishing that you will play it again
And thankfully you did
Yet only to be skipped
Repeatedly, deliberately
That even I
Have forgotten the moves
I cried then tried to remember
And cried again
For my effort was in vain
Why couldn’t I?
Then I looked at you

I laughed at what was in front of me
Seeing you reminded me
Of my long-standing foolishness
You never let our song reach its end
For you’ve grown accustomed to loud songs
That you can no longer hear
The low volume of ours
Then what was the purpose of a song
Making feel frustrated when I hear it
And as for you, inaudible
I’ve been hurt and tired
And you, only bothered
I deleted that song, solely for me

Some may say it’s pathetic, stupid, and immature
But I refuse to someday be lost in the sea
You call playlist.


Let go when needed, don’t make happiness wait for you.