I Deleted a Song

I can no longer dance to that song
As my body is no longer capable
Of making those silly moves
We hilariously yet confidently executed
Oh, it belonged to us
It was to be forever ours
But ahead of you
Is a broad array of songs
Waiting to be loved that way
And you felt responsible for them
So I waited as you move around
Cherishing them one by one
Because I only had that one song

I remained patient
Watching from the side
Wishing that you will play it again
And thankfully you did
Yet only to be skipped
Repeatedly, deliberately
That even I
Have forgotten the moves
I cried then tried to remember
And cried again
For my effort was in vain
Why couldn’t I?
Then I looked at you

I laughed at what was in front of me
Seeing you reminded me
Of my long-standing foolishness
You never let our song reach its end
For you’ve grown accustomed to loud songs
That you can no longer hear
The low volume of ours
Then what was the purpose of a song
Making feel frustrated when I hear it
And as for you, inaudible
I’ve been hurt and tired
And you, only bothered
I deleted that song, solely for me

Some may say it’s pathetic, stupid, and immature
But I refuse to someday be lost in the sea
You call playlist.

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Let go when needed, don’t make happiness wait for you.

Sober Madness

She is that proper, hardworking student
Who feels like she’ll die if she doesn’t pass an assignment
She values education after her family
Absence not in her vocabulary

She has a definite plan set her in mind
A boy cannot fit in her timeline
She knows what she wants
No one is to stop her

But she’s been around
In this guy’s mind for a long time
Her simplicity’s a sanctity for him
In shameless audacity, he soon destroys her

It is out of sober madness
When she saw a white bead in the darkness
She held onto it
And climbed the stairs blindfolded

Befuddled she was when she loved him
Never questioned the veracities of his lies
She gave him a precious flower
While he didn’t have the same power

One day, a seed presented itself
As she was hoping it wouldn’t
And when she told him,
Ridding of it was his immediate suggestion

Her conscience couldn’t allow that
Yet her pleadings were futile
For he didn’t disguise his apathy
And disappeared immediately

He was a hawthorn and pricked her
She both bled and cried thereafter
Now alone in the labyrinth garden
She found that the ground was sodden

With no idea on how to start her escape
The weight of the seed increases
She must defeat the somber desertion
In this sober madness, she cannot be drunk dazed.

Seeping Sadness

Seeping Sadness

The sun may fade, but it’s not gone
Wakes up again like everyone
They both bring life a yellow light
A tight embrace; makes us alright

Like strings attached to each other
People together are stronger
But one grows weak and leaves one day
Sadness sprout, soar, and even stay

Two yesterdays, my mind’s a mess
Both of my friends put through the test
The trees they loved turned into logs
The lonely, cold air stood with fogs

A dull whistle to the sad heart
Dust in the eyes and is rampant
Soft, silent cries flapped in the wind
Thinking back, realized they sinned

Melancholy saddled to them
They both have lost a precious gem
It smelt theirs, but the whiff is faint
Inside their souls, a heavy weight

The words they said rang in my head
Thoughts and tears while I lay in bed
Saddened, deaths dripped into my heart
Towards regrets, I’ll be apart.

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This is a poem about death, it reflects the loss of my two old friends. I am not proud nor satisfied with this piece, it is a topic that I cannot quite grasp and craft well about. I accept death as a part of our existence but sometimes, it is truly hard to embrace. It is a reflection of a realization; I hope that somehow it is reflected.