I Shouldn’t, Right?

all the questions I never asked
they still reside in my mind
often silently
but when the dark arrives
I grapple against them
they overpower
even the music that
walked me to myself

no, it’s not because I’m not okay
the truth is
I finally feel like a bird
which was once just a dream

I’m not sure if it’s universal
but when the comfort I hoped for
embraced me with its warmth
it felt uncomfortable
the silence felt less loud
and I was shocked,
I tried to be calm
then, it was raining for weeks

being at the edge
have I grown used to it?
I shouldn’t think
‘send me back’

I shouldn’t right?
yet it sometimes seems alright.

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I posted after a long time, I guess I remembered that I shouldn’t let my wits wilt. To the person reading this, live fully and be happy. Below is a wonderful song you can listen to.

Sober Madness

She is that proper, hardworking student
Who feels like she’ll die if she doesn’t pass an assignment
She values education after her family
Absence not in her vocabulary

She has a definite plan set her in mind
A boy cannot fit in her timeline
She knows what she wants
No one is to stop her

But she’s been around
In this guy’s mind for a long time
Her simplicity’s a sanctity for him
In shameless audacity, he soon destroys her

It is out of sober madness
When she saw a white bead in the darkness
She held onto it
And climbed the stairs blindfolded

Befuddled she was when she loved him
Never questioned the veracities of his lies
She gave him a precious flower
While he didn’t have the same power

One day, a seed presented itself
As she was hoping it wouldn’t
And when she told him,
Ridding of it was his immediate suggestion

Her conscience couldn’t allow that
Yet her pleadings were futile
For he didn’t disguise his apathy
And disappeared immediately

He was a hawthorn and pricked her
She both bled and cried thereafter
Now alone in the labyrinth garden
She found that the ground was sodden

With no idea on how to start her escape
The weight of the seed increases
She must defeat the somber desertion
In this sober madness, she cannot be drunk dazed.

Compilation of Poems (2)

Haiku

The Beginning

brown leaves were falling
when you walked in front of me
you gave me comfort

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Haiku

The White Silver Moon

The white silver moon
Cuddles the somber darkness
Yes, I want it too.

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Diona

Sweet Surrender

we were sitting on a truck
singing as if we rock
deep thinking about our luck

this reminds me, a while back
we’re running on a race track
laughing, knowing that we suck

with the two of you, l’m stuck
our bond never to unlock
like wolves, we’ll remain a pack

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Limerick

Withstanding Waves

It scares me how I keep on failing,
Stumbling and falling
But that’s how the sea is,
The waves will never cease
So I will never falter; I will keep on trying.

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Tanaga

patagong sumusulyap
dahil ‘di ka maharap
malapit man sa iyo
puso mo ay kay layo

nais kitang kantahan
ikaw ay mahawakan
ngunit nasa kaniya
ang iyong mga mata

Translation:

secretly glancing
because l cannot face you
even l am close to you
your heart is so far away

I want to serenade you
to embrace you
but it is with her
your eyes